Almost there.....

The next year will be one of many prayers, hoping and praying that all will be alright. We are coming to an end of the chemo treatment, and well while some think that this would be a happy time, I find that I am getting more and more stressed. I know that come October of this year, we will be relying on fate and crossing our fingers that my sons body will multiply the good cancer free cells. So it will be a trying time. I started to relax a little and started working again, well not really. I help clean the Senior's manor. It gives me a sense of worthyness. I feel like I am accomplishing something, and I love helping others. Lets me forget about my own problems even if just for a little.

Over the last few weeks, I have learned a few more strategies to help me get through all the speed bumps that I have to go over. My youngest, I found out is losing his hearing, and so that is what is putting a wedge on his speech. He talks, just very hard to understand. I try to be patient, and he tries to talk, but he gets very frustrated, when we don't understand. Understandable. But well we are all here for a purpose, and we will deal with whatever comes our way.

I am still engaged, and well everyone has their ups and downs, and I MISS HIM alot. But we do what we need to for our families. So if there is a will there is a way. I also started to go to the gym. I find that when I am working out, again, I don't think so much about myself, I more or less, find out I can count to 30 over and over and over again. lol. Maybe I will try 50 this week ;)

Well sorry its been so long, no excuses, tired of finding them. lol I hope to write back with some more exciting news. For all the family . . . . . Keep your chins up, and hey write me sometime.